My first dildo

sepia dildos 300x2251 My first dildo

So, I was 27 before I really was comfortable using sex toys.  However I bought my first sex toy when I was 20.  Knowing nothing about sex toys I just chose one that looked like it was a good size and it was a pretty purple color.  It was just a simple jelly dildo, probably cost me less than $10.  I think I bought it more to be able to say that I had one, rather than because I really wanted to use one.

The thing is; I never actually used it.  I was always nervous, almost embarrassed to use it.  I would get really, really horny, and take it out and look at it, but wouldn’t use it.  Eventually I’d insert it maybe once, and then start feeling things I’d never felt before, both physically and emotionally, and I’d get scared so I wouldn’t use it anymore.

Now by that time I had been sexually active, previously.  So I had experienced vaginal penetration by a couple different sized and shaped penises.  So it wasn’t the size and/or shape that threw me off.  I think it was that I was … well, penetrating myself.  While interpreting my feelings so long after the fact I think I felt like I shouldn’t have to masturbate, I never had a shortage of partners so it wasn’t like I wasn’t getting any.

Growing up in the upper Midwest things like sex toys, masturbation, kink and all that were very taboo and hush-hush.  There was something “wrong” with you if you masturbated or wanted unusual things.  It is entirely possible that part of my nervousness with using the dildo came with the fact that the only adult store in my home town was very run down, dark, dank and shabby.  The place that even during the day I wouldn’t ever go into alone.  Granted it’s cleaned up now, when you buy something in a place that’s that creepy the experience leaves it’s mark.

In the end I got rid of the toy; I never really used it.  And I certainly didn’t finger myself.  It wasn’t until a few years later when my husband left me that I got a couple vibrators and actually used them from time to time.  And now I’m an avid sex toy reviewer with bins overflowing with toys!

So, share with us your first experience(s) with a sex toy!  Were you all over it, or nervous like I was?

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4 Responses to “My first dildo”

  1. Toys for sex guy John Lawless

    Our first experience was with toy my wife got at one of those hosted parties. It wasn’t very well put together and I think it broke after a use or two. It wasn’t that exciting for us, probably due to the quality of the toy. A few months later we were watching HBO’s Real Sex together and there was a segment on glass toys. My wife thought that it would be cool to try one. We searched online and found the Phallix brand and we were off! We bought 3 glass dildos the first year. After that we have slowly built up a nice collection. I guess what I’m saying is there is a level of quality that needs to reached in order for a sex toy to be enjoyable.

  2. brandie

    I’m glad you guys were able to find the kinds of toys that you like! It’s too bad that the toy party was a bust. Kudos on finding what you guys want!! :)

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    My wife thought that it would be cool to try one. We searched online and found the Phallix brand and we were off! We bought 3 glass dildos the first year. After that we have slowly built up a nice collection.

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